My Encouragement!!

Thursday, June 14, 2018

Wait

I remember you,
I remember waiting on new years eve
for your call to wish me,
I wanted to start the year listening to your voice..
So I waited and hours passed by
Sun rose and came another day without
Knowing your whereabouts.

If I ask you what you remember of me?
I know you will say all our good times.
If you ask me what I remember about you?
All I remember was me waiting.
From dusk to dawn, day after day
All I remember was me waiting.

It didn't seem to end.
There were times I thought you'd
Just surprise me by your unannounced
Visit.
I imagined in my head how that would be
So I waited.
There were times when I hallucinated. Staring at your look-a-like faces,
I thought you passed by.
And I cried every day.
Million times my phone rang
And every time I hoped
It was you calling.
But you never did.
So I waited.
Day after day
Months after months.
Every occasion and every normal day.
I waited like a fool.
And you never came.
This is what I remember of you.
It was tiring.
I waited for so long.

Saturday, June 2, 2018

Rains

Every year the first rains
bottled up my sorrow
And I cried a river full of tears..
This time it seems
There is nothing more to grieve over..
So I cried dried up tears....

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

This is love

Dream away he said,
Soar high and do what
you have to do,
You will always have me
to fall back on!!
If this is not love, what is!!

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

I am not a robot!

I love you is so simple to say,
But what happens when you realize
What those words truly mean.
How bluntly there were times
when you said it without knowing
What it really feels.

May be you need to loose a few times
To know the passion those words
really bring.
To have experienced pain of loosing it
to the world,
To have to let it go when all you want to do is endure it.
To have to say goodbye when you desperately seek their presence
wherever you go.

I love you! I have said it a few times
But when was the last time I truly
meant it.
Losses are meant to scar.
And love is meant to heal them.
But then there are times when
you are someone else's love
And someone else's sadness.
What do you then?
Whom do you pick?
Answers just don't come by
and when they come by
either the timing is wrong
Or the world has set its
irreversible phase.

You are stuck forever wondering
Will you ever get one chance to
make it right?
And by fate if you'd get one
Will you make the same mistake again?

Wednesday, May 9, 2018

Your Absence

So tell me
How it is that your day goes by?
My absence
Has it made any difference?
Giving you a chance to
Live through what I
Have been living for ages...!
But I know
How indifferent you can be.!
It didn't matter then
It won't matter now..
The void will stay
no matter the glamor life carries around..
You haven't missed me
The way I had missed you..!
Every second stabbed the beating
Heart only to bleed and bleed tears..
You will not know the price
I have paid to love you..
Neither will you acknowledge
How the absence takes away
the bits and pieces of soul
Wanting to be rescued,
Only to realize the more I tried
To free myself
The more I sunk in destruction ,
And the less you and your presence
mattered.

Monday, May 7, 2018

Thoughts for soul

'Change' can never define love..

Neithr can 'adjustments'..

Sunday, May 6, 2018

Dramas of love

Of all the dramas I have been
Seeing these few days,
I love the ones where they held
On to their love against all odds.
I still watch it in awe
These scenes the actors enact
Resembling glimpses of true love.
How hypnotized I feel when
They walk at the heels to catch another
Given if they fall.
These little acts of romance
These cheezy lines of enchantment
The jealousy, excitement, fling,
Flirtations.. The story.
They make you fall in love with
The idea of love.
It makes love more believable.
Something even the ordinary
Can Behold
To believe in the naive essence of
What belief and perseverance can get you.

Only if you truly possess the lunacy
you can always persuade
your insanity to the one
Who Makes your heart flutter,
Who makes you wanna wake
Up day after day
And survive the war of loneliness
I see people fight each day.

Thursday, May 3, 2018

Tinge of sadness

Love comes with a tinge of sadness..
You have been replaced truly
By what I've always wanted..
Someone I truly deserve..
Yet you shadow the glee sunshine
And your thought surfaces
The darkness I try and keep buried..
I don't at times know what
Has become of me..
This person afraid of commitments..
I wasn't this..
I believed in love
And the happiness love got..
Now love comes with a tinge of sadness...
Yet I cherish it..
I have got the perfect one..
I don't want to be to him
What you have been to me....!


Wednesday, April 11, 2018

Silent tears

"I am leaving" she said to him on phone. "Meet me one last time please" he begged her. "Alright" she said.
He opened the door. There she was, standing in silence. Looking at him in despair. He gestured her to come in. A deep silence that had gripped their hearts now seem to have spread in the room. An hour passed. All they did was stare at each other waiting for the other one to break down. No one of the two showed any remorse. She gave a smile and got up to leave. The time had come. He held her hand and gestured her to sit. She sat on his lap, slowly tilting her head on his chest. Her legs brought up on the couch. He held her as if he held a baby,tightly clenching her around by his both hands. And they cried for hours together in silence. Tears rolling down their eyes drop after other. The universe had given up on them a long time ago. This sadness was their only shelter, a sheild they used to breathe in every emotion. Remembering each other every day and not doing anything about it. Neither they looked at each other, nor they consoled each other. They just sat there destroying every bit of their soul that was still alive. He cried in silence. She cried in silence. She left. He closed the door trying to soak in what it felt to hold her. He remembered that feeling again. His hands trembling. He knew he had lost.

Wednesday, April 4, 2018

Deleted

I have lost the count of
The number of times
I have deleted you...
Unfelt your presence..
Unlearned the memories..
Forgot the love..
Embraced the pain..
Blocked your thoughts..
Time to block you again for
the millionth time...
And the last time...
Should have done it ages ago..
But my good got over me.
Over time my weak memory
Had deleted the distress
And sadness you brought..
Life never makes you forget though..
And we get reminded of our mistakes
Time and again..
I love who I am now..
Strong, independent and fearless..
Of all you should be the last person
Telling me who I should be..
God saved me from a disaster..
For this I thank him
A zillion times...
You need to be buried..
This and all Other lifetimes..
You have met me here..
Don't follow elsewhere..
Time to burn it,
Delete it,
Block it,
Forget it,
Regret it,
Bury it
Now and forever....