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Sunday, June 5, 2016

The monsoon ...!!!

So distant and I can yet hear you whisper
I can feel you smile
And I can see your touch. 
The monsoon, oh! The monsoon
Makes me loose my normal.
And I drift to what I call a phase
'I am happy and yet not content'.
The rains remind the incomplete.
All I remember are the things
I couldn't have.

So now I call you a 'thing'.
Like the cold air my heart has gone
Cold for you.
And yet I know what you would have felt
If now you were here.
That's the thing about the monsoon,
About the lightening,
About the thunder,
It mimics what you feel inside.






Thursday, April 28, 2016

Tell me your story...!!!

So tell me
What bothers you the most?
What sinks your heart to bottom
And what lifts it up high?
What situation makes you loose your confidence?
Or what makes you so strong willed at times?
What do you think of in your lost times?
And what silently gets tears in your eyes?
What are you terrified about
Or what lifts up your crappy mood?

How you get your inner strength?
How you get up every day and face the monsters?
How you keep so much compassion for the less?
How you listen patiently to all around you?

Whom do you love the most?
Whom do you respect the most?
Whom do you hate and
Whom do you wanna forget?

Why are you doing what you are doing?
Why are you not backing down?
Why did you give up on certain people?
Why you held on to most extremists situations?

So Tell me your story
Answer the questions no one dared to ask you
Let me know you from your solace
To your discomfort.
Give me a tour of all your emotions.
Give me yourself
And let me hug your beautiful soul...!!!



Thursday, April 21, 2016

What I think of you...!!!!

He asked 'Do you think of me?'

Once a while
I do think how are you?
Probably pick up the phone to call you.
Then I remind myself,
It has taken me a lifetime to give up on you,
It has cost me everything to undo the love.
I have taken overmuch efforts
to get you out of my system.
And yes I resent you.
And yes I openly hate you.
So I give up that thought
And remind myself you are not worth it.
You are not worthy of a single thought.
You are not worthy of a single tear.
You are just not worth at all.
And yes I pity the one who will be with you next.
Cause I have known you the closest.
And knowing you in and out I know
how destructive you can be to someone.
I know what a coward, commitment less person you are.
And to what extent of a jerk you can be.
So yes I do think of you my dear
But never for the good times we had.
I will and always remember you in
words with no love.
In words so bitter and ruthless.
Cause you are not capable dear.
You are not capable of love.
And you can not make a home.
All you can do is destroy it for someone....




Saturday, April 2, 2016

Closure...

She cried and cried that night. Nothing could stop her soul from falling apart. 'I slapped him hard' she said. 'I slapped him hard' she kept repeating. 'For everything he put me through.'
             And I thought how lucky is she to get to do that. How lucky is she to find a little closure.




Thursday, March 17, 2016

His Regrets.. !!!!

"I miss you" he said. "Anywhere I go, all places remind me of you. Even when I am with her. I compare and I know in so many ways you were right for me. I cannot connect the way I connected with you. She is good but then she is not you. Somehow you made everything feel right . And now I feel empty. It's like I have all I want and I keep missing something. I keep chasing you in my thoughts. I keep chasing you in her. I miss you so much. What happened to us?"
"You left first" she said.

Friday, February 19, 2016

To My Future Me....!!!

To my future me,

I hope you stand for yourself just as I have taught you now. Be the person you always wanted to be. Be strong, Be compassionate. Don't give up on your dreams. Don't give into your fears. Don't hold on to the people who didn't believe in you.  Let go of the people who didn't choose you. Be successful but don't choose money over love. Don't take the easy way out. Fight your way. You have done it before, you are doing it now and in future if circumstances arise fight then too.
               Hey future me, I love you, no matter how stubborn you act, no matter how lazy you be at times, how emotionless you show yourself to be. Don't wait for anyone to complete you. Go out, drink wine, watch movies and take a break time to time. Be with the guy who sees the light inside of you. Kiss him goodnight every single night. Never forget to tell him how much you love him and that how much good he has got in your life.
              I hope you laugh your heart out. I hope you travel places, feel the green wind and beautiful blue waters.  I hope you dance around your living room to your favorite song and call up your friend to catch up. I hope you take a stroll out on rainy days just to smell the rain. Wear the kind of  dress you want and go to a party.I hope amidst all your busy schedule you always find time for your small family. I hope you return home to your kids everyday and ask them how was your day.
              Be happy dear. Let only a few people's opinion matter rather than the entire world's. Find these people and keep them safe. Be good. Make a difference. Always give a helping hand to the ones who need it. Don't give up on people. Don't give up on your faith and never leave hope. I wish  you get over your pain and forgive your mistakes. Share your burden my dear. And ever you feel you are getting lost come back to read this letter.
              Hey future me, be that person with whom I will fall in love a million times.
   




Tuesday, February 16, 2016

To My Valentine....

"You are my Valentine,
And you will always be."
Yes I have said this,
Well and the truth is
I have heard this before..
I have felt being ripped off and
I have been sore.....
So I don't need you to promise
love,
I need you to just be there...
I need not your gifts... I need your
heart...
I want you to be present with me
From an end to a start.....

So this Valentine's don't,
Don't gift me or surprise me....
This Valentine's just feel the love
and my presence.
Feel my dreams and make them yours..
Love me for my mistakes..
Love me for my self...
Love me to not show off to the
world....
Love me because you cannot find a
reason not to.....







  

Thursday, October 1, 2015

How I am what I am?

I sit at peace,
Happy and content.
With less to worry
and less to stress.
Not very often I be this calm.
Not very often I feel this serene.
And yet my heart has a zillion questions
as to 'How I am what I am?

I see my past
torturous and painful.
And I look at the people I left behind.

How is it that I don't feel what I felt then?
How is it that I have learnt not to give a damn?
How is it that I care so less?
How did I get out of the fanatical mess?

I only say 'Hi' to once whom I said 'I love you'
I unfriended  my one time best friend.
I stopped keeping a tab about their existence
and I have mastered the art to care less.

How did once so important are
now put on 'Move on' list,
My mistakes or theirs;
How did I learn to be okay?
I think...
Now I think..
What if they deserved another chance?
What if I had not been in such a hurry?

But then I think of their sharp words,
I think of their bitter deeds.
I think of their cold replies
and their other oh so essential needs.
My mistakes or theirs;
I seek for closure. 
To leave what is left of what it was.
To unburden the guilt of what was not to be.
They deserved polite goodbyes
to make myself come at peace.
And here I am with all the answers
to 'How I am what I am?



 





















Friday, May 1, 2015

A Silver Lining.

Good things are about to happen. Somehow I can sense it.
Happiness is around the corner waiting to knock.
'Enough' life said. 'Enough of your emotional turmoils. You deserve some peace after all. I am here to get back your smile. I am here to bring back your faith in me. I am here to give you what you wished for'.
Life said 'I am your fairy godmother.'

Monday, January 19, 2015

May Be I Am Cursed

I find all my smile in tears,
cause that's all I have ever known.
and I fear happiness to the extent
I think may be it's just cursed.

I fear of being happy
I fear to laugh till the stomach hurts
I fear not crying
I fear when the days go smooth.

So I wait for the storms.
I wait for my life to give
a nice unexpected tumble.
I wait and evaluate who next closest to me
is going to hurt me in best way possible.

And there I am again fighting the unknown.
and there I am again tossing and turning
Battling my two minds, splitting myself.
Battling to hold on.
Battling to let go.
and it's exhausting.
These battles are exhausting.
This life is exhausting.
I am exhausting.