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Sunday, June 30, 2013

Happy Pictures

She glanced at those pictures
in whom she couldn't hide her smile
thought she of those moments
so happy they seemed all while..

She couldn't help but wonder
What made them drift so apart
Why did they let the distance
ruin their hearts in two parts..

She never understood
how could he be so okay
She never understood
why he never called her back..

It hurt day in and day out
His words, his actions
and everyday she woke up in despair
She cried a million tears
It wasn't at all fair...

Of all the people she thought would leave
She believed he would stay,
Of all the people she thought mattered less
he mattered more than life..
He was her pride, and he was her smile
and now he betrayed her existence..

She glanced at those happy pictures
her heart ached to death..
Give me a way she said to him
Give me a way to forget you
Give me a way to ease this pain.
If ever we cross a path
Don't you stop and say "Love me again".

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Marriage Material..

He was the one guy who in midst of all her doubts gave answers that made her smile. She didn't know how much element of truth it had in it. But it lightened up her mood, made her focus and pulled her out of her misery. He was that one friend she really loved and was glad to have him a part of her life.
                  The day had been tough on her and all that past of hers took a toll on her thoughts. She felt this burden as if she was the one at fault every time. She knew this fall out wasn't her fault. But it seemed to happen quite frequent to her despite all the efforts she put. Somewhere it made her doubt herself. She sent him a text out of blue.

She asked "Am i marriage material?".
"Why this question? and what the hell is marriage material. You are human. Not a material." he texts back.
"Just asking" she said.
He seemed angry. "Idiot. Sitting idle and thinking all crap. That brain of yours." he replied.
"Calm down. Just thoughts hovering over my head. Was wondering if i'd keep him happy cause as of now my life has history of fall outs i don't seem to understand." she replied with a heavy heart.
"You keep everyone happy" he replied. "Even now. So after marriage it will be the same thing. You are a good person sweets. You can't hurt anyone".
She smiled. "I love you so much" she said.
"I was just typing the same words. Love you too my dear". He replied. "Only if wasn't for these circumstances i would have married you myself. Never would have given anyone else a chance."
"I know" she said. "I wish" she said.

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Its Like Love But Not Love

Its like love but its not love
When i be in his arms and
i think about you...

Its like love but its not love..
When he makes me smile
but you could make me laugh...

Its like love but its not love
When he kisses me gently and
all could think about is your lips..

Its like love but not love
When he flirts around
but only your words caught my ears..

Its like love but not love
When he makes me angry and i forgive
but at you i could yell...

Its like love but not love
When he holds me in his arms
but only in yours i felt complete...

Its like love but not love
When he is around always
and all i can do is not miss you less..

Its like love but not love
When he plays me a song
and i remember the one we hummed together..

Its like love but not love
When he holds the umbrella for me
and i think about the times i didn't need one with you..

Its like love but not love
When he cuddles me in the moonlight
and i hope its you holding me instead..

Its like love but not love..
cause i can't love anymore...
cause love is so many things
and for me you were all of them!

Rusty Petals (Haiku)

I Am So Out Of Joy.....

Even A Withered Flower

Seems To Have More Life.....

Saturday, June 8, 2013

Tears For Every Emotion!

She climbed those stairs, opened the door to her room, took a deep breath turned around and locked the door from inside. The stared at the empty room the haunting silence. She just stood for a long time not knowing which emotion she should drown into. She was sad, helpless, lonely, miserable, betrayed, abandoned and angry.
              It could have been their fifth anniversary she thought. Only if he had the guts to commit. One tear rolled down of sadness. She sat with her back against the door. How could he not care at all she thought. How could he be so okay about this situation. Second tear rolled out of helplessness. She might have be celebrating since midnight she thought. He would have explained why he loved her so much and she would have said he meant her her world. One tear rolled out of loneliness. It would have been his arms she would be wrapped in she thought. Instead she kissed this friend of hers and curled into his embrace just for the sake of it. She hated herself. She was hating this person she was turning into. Nothing filled the void. No kiss, no shoulder, no clasp or cuddle made her feel complete. Another tear rolled of her misery. He had promised her a future together. He had said no matter what the circumstances he would stay. He showed her those content dreams to later just leave then broken. One tear fell for the betrayal. He left giving all the filthy excuses. He left. One more tear rolled down for his abandonment. She processed all the mistakes his and hers a million times. She tried to justify his behavior with all possible explanation. All in vain. He left her so much of pain. He left her so much of humiliation. He left her and she cannot walk tall now. So the last tear was of anger. He will suffer she thought. He will have everything but love, all fame but support. He will never know true love in his life and from whom he will expect a commitment shall never stay. She hated she cursed him. But that was okay she just didn't wish him well thereafter. The last tear was of realization. The anniversary, the beginning itself had marked the end now. She has to live with this for life time. She wished he lives with same pain for eternity.